Thank you for all the kind support and prayers you have offered during this leg of the journey. I wanted to pop in and share some thoughts about where I am now, some three months (2.5) since transplant.
I was talking to a friend recently who asked me a question I have been asked more than once, “When are you going to take over the world now that you have kicked MS to the curb?” Hours later, I was chatting with God while going about the business of housework when I felt Him inform me that my task was not to concern myself with where I will be next year or next month. My task is to simply do today what can be done today and do it well.
My priority for the day cannot be to tango with an unknown future, it must be my priority to do the work in front of me and nothing more. This is a freeing piece of advice which I think bodes well for each one of us. It is how I managed 18 years in a body which was falling apart and it is how I will mange the next 12-18 months in a body that is coming together.
Over the years, I adjusted many things to accommodate the role MS played in my day to day. I made these adjustments without really noticing, but I have easily noticed as some of these areas improve and I have to adjust accordingly. An example of this is as simple as how I unload the dishwasher. Formerly, I would not take the basket containing the silverware out of the dishwasher because replacing the basket proved to be too difficult to be convenient. Last week I was unloading the dishwasher and, only I after I popped the silverware basket back in its place with ease, did I even notice that I had taken it out. My subconscious appears to be adjusting just as easily to positive improvements as it did to negative losses.
My walking pace and gait have continued to improve. I no longer use the electric carts at the grocery store, or need to bring one along for outings. This has been a huge bonus for my family and for me. My daughter and I recently walked Target for a full hour while I sipped my Starbucks and she her smoothie – just like regular folks! She and I both found much joy in such a simple outing.
I have also been dabbling in my former love of trying to figure out how to make certain convenience items homemade. Back in the olden days I made my own bread, bar-b-que sauce, cinnamon rolls, household cleaners and such. I have not been making bread or anything that grand, but I have made my own brown sugar cubes (to go in my tea) and have been making my own vinegar based cleaners again. I’m no granola Mom, but I do like keeping ingredients simple, non-toxic, and inexpensive. This takes energy and I am happy to have it.
Thank you for following along and for your continued prayers for my family and the good folks in Russia. I thank God for you in my prayers and love you all as much as ever. Mean it.